What does Positivity look like in The Middle of a Struggle? Is it Toxic Positivity?
This may be an annoying toxic post about how maybe all of this is the best thing to happen to me? I’m an optimist. I have always been. There is no secret sauce recipe I can give you about how to be one. I wish I could because I could make some excellent money with […]
Waiting in The Middle
I’m too impatient for this shiz I would love to lie to you and tell you that I am so patient. I would love to tell you that I am at one with the world and whatever comes my way will be enough. I’m not and it isn’t. You see I am woman of action. […]
Lessons of Support
My husband is not one for the spotlight. I am definitely the attention lover and one to put myself out there. Because of this, I have really tried to be mindful of sharing my perspective here and not infringe on his privacy and tell a story that isn’t mine. It’s been soooo hard because he […]
Middle of Labels
I sat down to write an entirely different essay, but this one has come erupting out of me, and I have to share it RIGHT NOW. Creating TikTok videos has become a new favorite pastime of mine. They are designed to be done on a phone, which is my main point of distraction at this […]
Passing out in the middle of a cafeteria
So nice I did it twice In a conversation earlier in the week, I had the pleasure of fully telling my story from scratch to someone I don’t know. It was a fun experience to realize how much normalizing I have done with some of the most ridiculous things in my world. He asked me, […]
Middle of a Struggle
I’m gonna be real honest with you. This isn’t a good post. I was trying to beat myself up to get a good written essay out for you all because I’ve set goals to send them every Sunday and Wednesday. Also, the last post of this you read was me declaring this to be my […]
Manifesting the Middle
I had never heard of Human Design until a few weeks ago. Human Design is a complex system/chart based off the location and time of your birth. It combines aspects of many things like astrology and chakras to show how you were designed to operate in this life. I consider myself woo-adjacent. This means that […]
Lazy is a Bad Word
The word lazy haunts me. The problem is that my brain says it to me over and over again. Negative Self talk has always been a difficulty of mine. I’ve read the books that are supposed to help me. I’ve worked with wonderful therapists who have tried to help me see and improve where it […]
An Ode to My Shower Chair
Why did I wait 33 years to buy a shower chair? Now I know that there are some people who love a shower. They are always like, showering, all the time to relax, I guess. I have never been that person a shower is some thing that I have to do for myself, and the […]
Middle of An Identity Crisis
My three year old son has started asking me regularly, “mom, how are you feeling.” Every time he does this, I get a rush of pride and sadness. I am full of pride because he is developing empathy. I have always hoped to raise a child who is so caring for others. Empathy is a […]