The Good and Bad of a Good Day
I keep having more and more good days. This is an achievement and something to celebrate. So, I wanted to document the goodness of a good day, but also be clear about the rough parts. I know we’d all like to think it’s all sunshine and rainbows, there is the other side of a good […]
When You’re Not Good Enough for Imposter Syndrome and Realizing You Were Failing for a Different Reason than You Thought.
I’ve been working on a piece about imposter syndrome for a few weeks now. As usual, I find that if the words aren’t flowing, that means there is something wrong with the premise of the essay I am writing. I finally realized today, that I couldn’t write something about being an imposter, when I feel […]
The Ups and Downs
Note – this isn’t as polished as a piece that I post on purpose… because I’m going through the ups and downs. I do plan to come back to edit/improve for the future. The unpredictability of chronic illness may be the most difficult aspect for me to wrap my mind around. I also believe it […]
Time is on my Mind
Our relationships with time are complicated. Thinking about my own relationship has become a necessity and something I can’t escape.
Grieving Myself
We say goodbye to old versions of ourselves all the time. Many times we grieve our old selves without acknowledging it.
Normal Results – A Poem
Test come back “normal” or stabilizing. I feel just as ill and and it’s traumatizing.Tears streaming down my face,Just purely stuck in this place. How in the world can this be?There IS something wrong with me.Stuck with nothing to do.Don’t want to be a burden to you. Can never do enoughWanting to show I am […]
Waiting in The Middle
I’m too impatient for this shiz I would love to lie to you and tell you that I am so patient. I would love to tell you that I am at one with the world and whatever comes my way will be enough. I’m not and it isn’t. You see I am woman of action. […]
Lessons of Support
My husband is not one for the spotlight. I am definitely the attention lover and one to put myself out there. Because of this, I have really tried to be mindful of sharing my perspective here and not infringe on his privacy and tell a story that isn’t mine. It’s been soooo hard because he […]
Middle of Labels
I sat down to write an entirely different essay, but this one has come erupting out of me, and I have to share it RIGHT NOW. Creating TikTok videos has become a new favorite pastime of mine. They are designed to be done on a phone, which is my main point of distraction at this […]
An Ode to My Shower Chair
Why did I wait 33 years to buy a shower chair? Now I know that there are some people who love a shower. They are always like, showering, all the time to relax, I guess. I have never been that person a shower is some thing that I have to do for myself, and the […]