It’s the Most Middle Week of the Year
Read that in the “It’s the Most Wonderful Time of the Year” song cadence This week is quite like a time vortex. It is like the ultimate middle. Many people have this week off work, but there are also many people who are still working. For those who have the week from work – it’s […]
Normal Results – A Poem
Test come back “normal” or stabilizing. I feel just as ill and and it’s traumatizing.Tears streaming down my face,Just purely stuck in this place. How in the world can this be?There IS something wrong with me.Stuck with nothing to do.Don’t want to be a burden to you. Can never do enoughWanting to show I am […]
Moving The Mddl
Ch-ch-ch-changes are a-comin! When I started The Mddl in October here on Substack, I thought it was going to be a little side thing I did to make myself happy. A place to share my writings and maybe at some point I would be able to make a little money from it. Then, my entire […]
What does Positivity look like in The Middle of a Struggle? Is it Toxic Positivity?
This may be an annoying toxic post about how maybe all of this is the best thing to happen to me? I’m an optimist. I have always been. There is no secret sauce recipe I can give you about how to be one. I wish I could because I could make some excellent money with […]
Waiting in The Middle
I’m too impatient for this shiz I would love to lie to you and tell you that I am so patient. I would love to tell you that I am at one with the world and whatever comes my way will be enough. I’m not and it isn’t. You see I am woman of action. […]
Lessons of Support
My husband is not one for the spotlight. I am definitely the attention lover and one to put myself out there. Because of this, I have really tried to be mindful of sharing my perspective here and not infringe on his privacy and tell a story that isn’t mine. It’s been soooo hard because he […]
Middle of Labels
I sat down to write an entirely different essay, but this one has come erupting out of me, and I have to share it RIGHT NOW. Creating TikTok videos has become a new favorite pastime of mine. They are designed to be done on a phone, which is my main point of distraction at this […]
Passing out in the middle of a cafeteria
So nice I did it twice In a conversation earlier in the week, I had the pleasure of fully telling my story from scratch to someone I don’t know. It was a fun experience to realize how much normalizing I have done with some of the most ridiculous things in my world. He asked me, […]
Middle of a Struggle
I’m gonna be real honest with you. This isn’t a good post. I was trying to beat myself up to get a good written essay out for you all because I’ve set goals to send them every Sunday and Wednesday. Also, the last post of this you read was me declaring this to be my […]
Manifesting the Middle
I had never heard of Human Design until a few weeks ago. Human Design is a complex system/chart based off the location and time of your birth. It combines aspects of many things like astrology and chakras to show how you were designed to operate in this life. I consider myself woo-adjacent. This means that […]