Lazy is a Bad Word
The word lazy haunts me. The problem is that my brain says it to me over and over again. Negative Self talk has always been a difficulty of mine. I’ve read the books that are supposed to help me. I’ve worked with wonderful therapists who have tried to help me see and improve where it […]
An Ode to My Shower Chair
Why did I wait 33 years to buy a shower chair? Now I know that there are some people who love a shower. They are always like, showering, all the time to relax, I guess. I have never been that person a shower is some thing that I have to do for myself, and the […]
Middle of An Identity Crisis
My three year old son has started asking me regularly, “mom, how are you feeling.” Every time he does this, I get a rush of pride and sadness. I am full of pride because he is developing empathy. I have always hoped to raise a child who is so caring for others. Empathy is a […]
Middle of a Book
In an attempt to be more positive about the middle, I am challenging myself to make all Sunday posts about the good parts of the middle. Or, at least a lighter take on the middle. I adore being in the middle of a book. There is a certain magic to be in someone else’s, whether […]
Avoiding the Middle
Something is wrong with me. Just admitting that something is wrong, is a very difficult thing for me to do. I like to solve a problem before I can even admit to myself that something was wrong. If we can fix it before everyone (including me) knows, we can avoid the messy middle. I am […]
Laundry is the Middle
I hate laundry. I know this isn’t a revolutionary or unpopular opinion, but I hate it. Let’s be honest I hate all housework. I have always envied the people who seem to get joy or relaxation from housework. I remember growing up my one of my friends said she loved cleaning, I remember thinking she […]
Support in the Middle
My son crafted his first Jack-o-lantern today, and I wasn’t part of it. I wasn’t a part of it because I was sleeping. I wasn’t part of it because I’m dealing with some health/mental health issues and taking care of myself. It would be so easy for me to beat myself up for this. What […]
Middle is Not Mediocre
You are most likely not the best at everything. Frankly, it is safe to say that you are not the best at most things. This is not a knock on you and I am not a magical witch who can see you through the computer screen and know everything about you. Statistically speaking, only one […]
Inside the Middle of a Panic Attack
I had a panic attack in public last week.
Learning to Embrace the Middle
I have always been a future oriented person. I am always looking to and thinking about the next thing. When I was younger, I always wanted to be older. In high school I couldn’t wait for college, in college I couldn’t wait to be out on my own, out on my own I couldn’t wait […]