This is another non-post, post.
I have said it a million times and I will say it again, transparency is important to me. We often only hear about someone’s middle when it’s over. Part of this site is sharing about the middle while you’re in the middle. It’s messy, it’s confusing, and it’s hard.
Sometimes, transparency isn’t possible. Not to be secretive, but because you don’t know how to discuss something, and because it’s not the right time.
I had a stomach virus this weekend which has completely leveled me. You’re seeing me learn about living with my chronic illness in real time. Physically, I knew this would be a challenge for me, but I didn’t expect it to take such a toll on me mentally.
Energy is more than just the physical, but the mental and emotional energy as well. Expelling too much mentally and emotionally will take me down just as much as walking and doing too much around the house.
This has left me where I am currently.
My brain feels like mush, I don’t know how to communicate right now. So, I just say, I wish you well today. I am around, I am here if you need me, but I’m going to let the mush take care of itself.